hey! to all my dear frens,

i've changed my blog to www.xanga.com/jingal

pls leave ur msg on xanga using the "add comment" feature. i wun be able to read ur msg on the tagboard here. thank u very much~

lastly, pls give me suggestions to improve my new blog. thank u!

I had a nice lunch wif Mrs. Ong yesterday. We talked a lot AHS stuffs and I then realized that so many teachers who had/had not taught me be4, left school due to one reason or another. I guess the next time if im back sch, there will be only one quarter of the teachers whom I know. But I will still go back often to visit the teachers.

Oh yap, there will be a new principal in AHS…3 principals in 4 years! I miss the days when Mr. Moo was in sch. Without Mr. Moo, I wun be in AHS, and probably wun get into HCJC neither. I would probably in a neighbourhood school which means I may still in poly now. Mr. Wang was also not bad, at least he offered me to study Higher Chinese in the 2nd term of my Sec 4 life. Thank you so much, Mr Moo and Mr Wang!

I’ve sent several x’mas cards to my sec sch teachers few days ago. Wanna send cards to my JC teachers too. But too bad, I dun haf any of their addresses. Next time, must put the add on year book mah~ and I realized my class list dun haf add neither…BR! How come you know my add? Anyway, thank u so much for your card! If im not wrong, u sent me a card last yr too. I was so lazy to reply. Sorry!

Back to my talk wif Mrs. Ong, both of us criticized the education system. We chatted at the new syllabus, project work, CCAs etc. and I still remembered the “relative velocity” in new A Maths syllabus. Think I still dunno how to work on the qns. Hai! Anyway, heard frm Mrs Ong that they r going to change syllabus again in 2007…hopefully, it’s a right movement. My batch is the victim for almost everything, eg. 1st batch to study Social Study, New syllabus, Project work… the only thing think I escaped is SPA in JC. Imagine how much I’ve suffered…at least some things are getting better nowadays.

If got chance, I really hope to be the minister of education or at least the wife of minister of education. So that I can try to let HCJC’s name back and perhaps not to let the younger generation suffer so much from the present education system…haha! It's just an impossible dream...haha!

SPH SG

not long ago, i hate the sph security guards and becoz of that reason, i've even afraid to go sph for quite some times early this yr. still remembered the 1st of our orientation this yr, i quarrelled wif one of the indian sph SG...sorry! i really hate u...

but the situation gets much better nowadays, partly becoz of the orientation incident i guess. in fact, some of the sph SG get to know me. one of the chinese SG likes to call out my name. haha! i long to see him every time when i head to sph sesurity hse. we chatted for quite a few times too. he's so nice! but i still afraid to see those non-chinese SG there. not becoz im racist etc, but they really look fierce.

to my surprise, just now i went to the security hse to change pass. one of the indian or malay SG looked at me suspiciously initially, but he soon smiled at me when i smiled to him. is it becoz of my long mini-skirt? or my nice sweet smile? haha! anyway, the SG there are getting much better now. at least, i wun haf any difficulty to change a visitor pass and can even get a contract worker's pass if im lucky, like today. hee!

really think if i dun work in sph next time, it's a big waste since i get to know the SGs there so well...haha!

Singapore Vs Shanghai

i've been talking wif irene who is currently in shanghai for internship and study this whole afternoon on MSN. being a shanghainese, we shared many common interesting topics.

traffic
the traffic there is horrible+terrible. irene said she tried to cycle to company, den gonna horn by a bus or sth. haha! and she's so amazed by how those shanghainese dare to cut the path of a moving bus or cars and how they can run along the bike and mount on it while the bike is still moving. she said she wants to learn the skill. so funny! i used to be one of those cyclist leh last time. last time, i cycled to sch every day lor. but nowadays, im same as irene liao--lost all these skills and sometimes, even dun dare to cross the road. hai! and the fact is the ppl there nv look at the traffic light when they cross the road. i argued it's a kind of culture there. haha!

girl
shanghai girl is very fierce. i agree wif tat. but irene said im no longer those typical shanghai girl coz im much gentler and nicer. haha! but im plan to be more fierce, cannot lost my culture mah. haha! oh yap,i argued with her tat it's a kind of special culture there, same for it's terrible traffic. that's y make the city so diff from the others. haha!

guy
of course, cannot miss out shanghai guy. our conclusion is "nice,100% good husband who is afraid of his wife" really! i often saw househusband(not housewife) who go to market aft work and some even cook for the family in shanghai. unlike singaporean guy, some of them are so da4 nan2 ren2 zhu3 yi4. this is not a sweeping statement. at least, my class already haf 3 out of 12. sorry 4 futh and biao! i want to be a successful career woman. i wun stay at hse and doing nothing, but serve as a maid. i need to be financial independent. haha!

actually, we oso talk a lot more. but im too lazy to summarise here. btw, another fren nicole oso in shanghai now. she said she gained 4kg. i want to see how fat is she now! haha! but really u will find very hard to resist all the nice and cheap food there.

anyway, im coming back soon. see u, sh!

珍惜

　　不懂为什么人总是这么的“践”，至少我觉得我是如此。

　　往往只有失去后，才会懂得珍惜。可是通常到那时，已经太迟了。

　　不过，这至少让我认识到了失去后的价值，懂得了珍惜的重要性，更让我了解到了曾经拥有过的宝贵。

　　要不是因为分离，我想我是永远不会知道您是如此地了解我，我也不会知道您是这么地信任我，当然，我也不会这么珍惜我们在一起时的短暂时光。

　　每次都盼望着重逢，但是却又极度抗拒重逢后的再一次分离。

　　只留下美好的回忆在脑海里反复咀嚼，反复回味。然后，怀疑自己：这到底是一种享受，还是折磨？

迟疑

　　犹豫不决，往往使我错失了生命中许多宝贵的机会。

　　虽然我常常告诉别人要好好把握机会，因为一旦机会错过了，就再也不会回来了。然而，自己却还是如此，做什么事都不能马上下定决心，结果一拖再拖，机会就这样悄声而过。

　　警告自己下次不可以这样了，却又一而再，再而三地－－重蹈覆辙！

　　事实是残酷的，当别人都在进步时，你一旦停下脚步，别人就会超越你。同样的，或许你只是稍微有点迟疑，也许就无法再抓住他了。

　　我会尽量把这几个词从我的字典中除去，永久地删除。。。

finally i've uploaded most of my prom photos.

just now, i spent quite some time reading fren's blogs and im really touched, esp by Helen, Xiaoting and biao's entries. i feel so fortunate to be part of 03S61 with dearest teachers, like Mr. Chow, Mr. Teo, kapo etc.

staying at my fren's hse these few days, dun ask me the reason why? just want to get out of the place i've used to stay and if possible, get out of this world...

until recently, i've happened to get in touch wif some poly students. realised that there are many ppl living in a very diff world from mine. i mean ppl at the age of mine can be so...maybe to them is normal or maybe im too guai1 liao...it only makes me more treasure wif my class--61, we all haf the same "frequency", talking lame jokes which only we can understand and not forgetting our lotsa hong lou, cha guan or xiao shuo quotes which only we can "appreciate". haha!

quarrelled wif mum through phone few days ago, but i regretted immediately.i shldn't blame mum for not understanding me. in fact, i always feel so lucky to haf such a reasonable and understanding mum who gives me lotsa freedom, but at the same time, gives me advices. and i feel more guilty this morning when she told me she has some stomach problem in a recent medical checkup. wat makes me more upset is that it has a possilblity to turn to a stomach cancer...

think it's not the right time to continue write anymore.
gd nite everyone and wish u all haf a healthy life!

hey, ppl! here's the link for prom photos.
www.jingpromphoto.MyPicGallery.com

i will upload more photos coming on and some are the photos we took in the early morning aft prom. remember the nice sunrise?

03S61! I love u, miss u so much!
and all the teachers, chinese sociey, LEP, HCJC...

I feel have a lot thing to write, but when I start writing, dunno where to begin now.

Exam is over, A level is over, camp is over, prom is over…I dunno wat is the next thing waiting for me or rather wat is the next thing I can do. The sense of loneliness, the feeling of loss, I really dunno how to use words to describe, not even a Chinese word I can think of now.

Back from hotel this afternoon, even though I had not slept 4 a whole nite, yet still not feel very sleepy. Instead I feel very sad; I dunno when can I meet all my frens again and doing the same things, talking the same lame jokes, laughing at one another, niao3ing at ppl (esp Futh) as we did over the past 2 yrs etc. Im afraid I will eventually lose all my nice, caring, friendly frens aft some times, maybe 5 yrs, 10 yrs, 20 yrs…I dunno. Maybe one day, we have chance to pass over each other at orchard or somewhere, but by then, we are already strangers----not even a word of “Hello!”

2 yrs is really too short for us to be together. I haf never regretted come to hwa chong, joined LEP, and be a S61cian despite my disappointing+lousy+残不忍睹 results and im quite sure I would definitely do better if im at TJ or in S2, S3 or S7 faculty. But in tat case, I would miss all the fun time with my class, teachers (esp, kapo, Mr. Chow, Mr Teo, Mr Ong, Mr Ngoi, Mr Tan and many more), Chinese Society, Huang Cheng Ye Yun, LEP(语特)……

总觉得自己是一个特别容易感动，也十分感性的人。看到大家在十字路口，各自分道扬镳，我除了不舍，还是不舍。即便是当年讨厌的“眼中钉”, 我还是会忍不住上去和他拥抱、道别。看到以恬亲自花了这么多心思，给我们每人的小礼物，尤其读到她写我的信，我的眼泪只差那么一点就流了出来，我感动的真的不知道要说什么才好。Prom之后，大家坐在一起谈心，突然发现原来彼此都这么了解对方，总觉得没有人关心自己的我，才了解原来有这么人关心我，照顾我，迁就我。。。可是，我还是觉得自己很失败，有时候(其实是最近)要找个朋友出去，问了一大堆人，竟全部吃“闭门羹”，如果再失去这些曾经/现在还是这么了解我、关心我的朋友。。。突然之间，我好想快快离开，我不想再自甘堕落下去。如果哪一天，我突然不告而别，应该知道我是去了哪里吧！

对不起，我太会哭了。。。还是改天再继续UPDATE吧！still got a lot things to update including camp, pre & post prom and of course my feelings. Let me end my 2day’s entry with yi tian’s letter. ba.

“Lu Jing,
甜姐儿！其实要感谢你在J1的时候，一直听我发牢骚（是吗？我不怎么记得了，好像我向你发牢骚的时候比较多）。HAHA~我觉得你的皮肤好好哟。今天的你一定很性感，外加超级漂亮（指PROM，谢谢！谢谢！），还有那双电眼（有吗？），真是令人难忘！很多人都羡慕我的柔道很好（这是真的，而且和你在一起特别有安全感，一定没有人敢欺负我。哈哈！），但我也会羡慕别人啊，就像你一样。。。能在报馆工作，接触到不同的人和事。总之，大家都要知足啰。。。明年三月你也会回来拿成绩吧！到时候再见面LOR。。。祝你在这三个月内尽快找到男朋友！！很期待LEH。。。我应该还会在新加坡念大学，希望我们还可以成为同学！！我觉得03S61有你，就有趣LEH，因为你有时开始骂人还蛮可笑的。。。可爱啊！谢谢你，我会记得你的！！（我也会！）有机会再见吧！拜拜！！

以恬
华初语特03S61
8TH DEC 2004"